Underwhelmed

The more I give the more underwhelmed I get. And I keep thinking to myself, is this what I want. Somehow I always find myself being bound by doing what is right, and what should be done. Finish the work, fulfil that obligation, keep that promise. And the inner person just needs to rebel. Screw everything I wanna do what I want. yea. Right the very next minute I silently like the lemming that I am revert back to mundane normalcy. On a sidenote I am giving up ALL my vices because of another duty, this time national, in the form of IPPT.